What Am I Doing?
I've got to stop what I'm doing. Can't carry on with that quirky habit. It's not good, and I feel like shit everytime after that happens.

Why is it that I don't have that little bit of self restrain? Why is it that I don't have the determination that I used to have? Why is it that I'm the way I am? I really can't carry on with that anymore. It has to stop.

Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. Everyday I pray that the same thing wouldn't happen the following day, but my prayers were never heard. Self control and determination is all I need. I really don't wish for it to carry on anymore. I'm losing my strength to fight.