doom awaits me...
tmr will b dae 1 of my CIBTC...im so nervous n ive nt done up my uniform!gotta prepare everything by 2dae...die lah!haiz...i'll try 2 survive thru diz...muahaha...alritez i gtg...muz start now or else it's too late le!ciaoz!

yippeiz!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i finally wen 2 PA 2 collect my CI uniform n the briefing...was pretty scared initially but turned out ok...worry 4 nth...haha...rained like mad den we were all soaked...esp out shoes!so disgusting...haha...
n we gotta lug ALL the tings back man!so freaking heavy!owellz,now im juz waitin 4 the course 2 start!n im worrying again!hahaha...muz wear full-u on mondae!got so mani tings 2 do!tmr muz wash all the uniform,alter,polish boots,put up everyting...man!im gonna b real bz!haha...alritez,dowanna bore u peeps le...take care!

hehehe...
happy sha-la-la...it's so nice 2 b happy...hahaha...alritez,u peeps may tink im nuts...i am so wat?ahahhaa...i juz nid 2 show my happiness...4 wat reason,it's a secret!wahahaa...!im an ass!

geez...
i juz got a hug...my "1st" hug aft 2 yrs...haha...the feelin is so...unexplainable...wahaha...i've got nth much 2 sae...juz dat hmm...i feel different 2dae...wahaha...
n yikes!it's thursdae!meaning im left wif onli 1 dae 2 my collection of uniform n briefing!im startin 2 freak out oready...
im over the moon!!!nt really lahz...but juz happy!haha...cheerios!

ewww...
wen 2 PHS 2dae 2 take the NCOs 4 campcraft n aft dat i wen 2 cut my hair n yikes!it's so terrible!it's like so short now(still can tie budden it's much shorter than b4)...n it seems so dry...yucky!tink i gotta go 4 some hair treatment soon...shldnt haf dyed my hair in the 1st place...shld haf left it in it's original straight n silky state...owell...
now i gotta dye back black coz of my course...meanin there'll b MORE damage 2 my hair!guess i'll rebond it 1 more time n datz it...leave it as dat...juz hope dat aft dying my hair black the condition will b betta...if it gets worse,i'll b so devastated manz...
sumeone came over frm 3pm all the wae 2 7pm...so cool lahz,had fun...haha...at least my dae wasnt so dead 2dae...haha...
hey,wat do u mean by i get u mad?hey look,u r NOT the onli 1 wif feelings alrite so watz all those tok abt ME gettin YOU mad?wateva lahz...now wateva i do is wrong wrong wrong...n u juz gotta sae it out.

i've got it...
well,life's been a whirlwind these few daez but it seems like tings r startin 2 get back on tracks...i really do hope so...my course is drawing near n im like so freakin scared...
yeahz ok dude,we'll work smth out...guess it's the turning pt at diz moment huh...u r sum1 very dear 2 me alrite so dun sae tings like u dont mean aniting 2 me...
well,i sure do hope dat everyting will b back 2 like b4 soon...

cold...so cold...
he has changed...he said i changed but i dun tink my change is as drastic as his...his attitude 2wards me is like so cold now...
y izzit dat everytime smth happens btwn us,u'll juz shun awae n start giving me dat cold treatment...in the past it was liddat...n now history is repeating again...do u alwaes run awae frm probz in diz manner?i juz dun understand y...
howeva,im glad dat u r feelin much betta nw...may u go back 2 b ur usual self soon...n u noe i hate it most especially wen im given the cold treatment...i tasted it once frm u 3 yrs back n im tasting it again...
but if giving me diz kinda treatment makes u feel betta,den go ahead...as long as u feel less crummy,den it's ok,im willing 2 accept wateva kinda attitude u wanna gimme...hope u'll enjoy ur holz...

~the greatest liberation is to forgive...~

Friendship
im sure true frenship will b able 2 help us thru diz...haf faith,tings will b betta as soon as everyting is settled...aft ur course n my course...i juz seriously pray dat the close bond dat we share of more than juz frenz will pull us thru...
go thru ur CLT course wif the willpower u once had...seek the dream u've yearned 4 all along...dun let it go liddat juz coz of diz setback...the ting btwn us now shldnt b affecting ur goals...i wan u 2 continue 2 realise ur dream...go 4 wat u wan,wat u aspire...
time will make up 4 everyting...gif me time as well as gif urself time...dun rush me...i'll try my best...i may nt b able 2 do it 2 the degree dat u r satisfied,so pardon me...
hope dat wif diz entry,u'll feel betta...i seriously hope 2 c u back 2 ur old cranky dorky hyper self...cum back soon...

*i'll work hard 2 get tings back on track again...
but plz work along side wif me...*

tired...
wen 2 PHS 2 help out in the NCO's campcraft training n althou i did nth,but im darn tired cos i slept late last nite...got hm n slept like a log man...haha...there's training tmr as well but i aint goin...goin dwn on mondae thou 2 help isaac out...haha...
as 4 u,u wanna noe how i feel rite?im havin very mixed feelings...u feel im nt givin u enuf attention mayb cos it's ur o's n my poly life aint as slack as it seems...tings wun turn arnd anitime soon coz u got ur CLT course n i got my CI course...dat will pull us apart somemore coz we wun haf much time 2 tok during dat period but i hope dat our frenship will b able 2 endure dat tough period...
also,im so sorri dat i cant attend ur passing out parade...it clashes wif my course...u noe i'd definitely go if i could...
we'll find some time aft everything alrite?n if it's possible,we'll spend xmas over the fone like b4?or mayb mit up or smth...but if u oready haf plans den it's alrite...haf fun...meanwhile,take care...

haha...
shock is the word...he came over juz nw...n we chatted frm 10 plus 2 12...haha...juz sat arnd the bend outside my place n chatted...apparently he was running wif his fren n i haf no idea how he ended up at my area...wahaha...but it was nice time spent...

Urgh...
tink im gonna die of excessive exposure 2 radiation...was on the fone wif jeremy last nite 4 abt 6 n a half hrs!the last 4 hrs i was using my dad's hp...can die man!!!if diz goes on,i'll probably bcum a walkin zombie wif leaking fluids frm the head n b practically nuts...
hmm...betta slp early 2nite otherwise i'd really b a walkin zombie tmr...haha...cant wait 2 go out tmr!yay!we r headin 2 Lips 2 sit there n chit chat n practically rot lahz...haha...n here cums my cookies invasion!cant wait 2 eat it...i noe it's sinful n all...but hu cares?!it's ok 2 indulge once in awhile rite?hahaha...aniwae im goin 4 my course soon so i gotta enjoy life while i can now...haha...
yay!juz cant wait...im so happy!lalala...haha...cheerios!

*Yawnz Yawnz*
wahahaha...haven slept a wink yet!been awake the whole nite!was playin ps2 n tokin 2 daryl on the fone...n the dumb thing was dat at 3am, i was toking 2 daryl on the fone as well as online...wat the hell!so lame manz...
n now it's day break...n i tink im gonna try 2 slp...man...im becumin more active at nite...haha...alritez...gonna try 2 catch a wink...

*Yawnz*
juz woke up...so tired...ydae wen 2 work wif my mum 2 shred papers...had 2 lug those papers n clear the rubbish myself...but owell,it was worth it coz i finished my job in 3/4 dae n haha,earned 50 bucks on the spot...shiok or wat sia...haha...alritez,i gtg...cyaz!

Haiz...
oh manz...i juz received the confirmation for the 65th batch CI BTC frm NPCC HQ...im dreading it!!!argh...i was hoping dat i wldnt get selected but...wat the heck!muz go thru 2 weeks of hellish training!im gonna DIE man!haiz...so dreading 28th nov 2 cum coz datz the breifing date n i hate 1st-16th dec!datz wen the course will b!dammit...haiz...hope everything will b as easy like wat Isaac said...

Happy,sha-la-la...
haha...juz got hm at 1am...had a hell of a time man!aft paper...my classmates n i wen 2 chinatown...wanted 2 go ktv but dunno wat happened so ended up eating onli but it was so fun!ate like pigs! stingray,sotong,etc!!!yummy!im still damn full now...
aft dat we wen 2 esplanade 2 juz sit n chit chat...the interesting thing was dat my fren n i wen hm by mrt n we stupidly n blurly took the wrong side w/o noticing until we reached redhill n i was like "shit,y r we at redhill?" my goodness!i totally freaked out!coz it was oready 11.45pm!ended up havin 2 go back 2 cityhall n luckily we managed 2 catch the last train back...phew!
well,we really had a gr8 time...so happy...nv spent a class outing liddat b4...haha alritez...i'll sign off now...cyaz!

Freedom Is Soon 2 Be Mine...(or so i tink?)
muahahaha...aft 2nite's paper...i can rock the world!i can play my heart out,play till my lungs run out of air,play till the blood in my veins run dry...i dun care!if onli i dun get restricted so much by my parents...how nice wld dat b?but bein restricted is gd 2 a certain extent...at least im still a normal gal,nt some rebelious,screw loose in the head kid...n im proud of it...
but 4 now...im 1/2 dead coz the exam is 2nite yet im nt done wif studying!n look wat im doin here...haha...luckily it's accounts n ive got background 4 dat,but the last fews chapts im a lil rusty...alritez,i better move my butt now...cheerios!

After tmr...
yes oh yes!i juz cant wait 4 tmr!!!aft tmr's paper,im a free gal!!!but sadly,the paper is in the evening so dat means i can onli party at nite...juz cant wait!!!i wanna party!!!
ive my plans oready...aft tmr,muz start shoppin 4 xmas gifts n new year clothes n stuff...den mayb get a job?(nahz...im too lazy 4 dat,i rather stay at hm n slack n rot)...hehehe!

KILLER IS OVER!!!
man...i was so pissed 4 the past 2 daes coz i was wondering hu on earth invented economics but now...im ON TOP OF THE WORLD!!!coz it's FINALLY over!althou nt totally over,but the exam is over!still gotta live wif econs 4 another 1/2 a yr...y muz it b a yr long module?!
hahaha...1 more paper n it's the holz 4 me oready!juz cant wait...im juz counting the daez man...n the last paper is accounts...yay!but the dumb thing is dat the paper will b frm 6pm-7.40pm...so weird...but aft dat mayb goin 4 steamboat wif my classmates!
kk,i betta get goin,dowanna write too much n bore u peeps...cyaz!