[1O] Jay-Jay [MA] says:
*aiya she wants to be childish let her be lah
[1O] Jay-Jay [MA] says:
*if shes stupid enough to tell people everything, then hopefully shes smart enough to know everyone will say shes stupid

Fierce! The love needs a chill pill.

Funny Shit

`dilun/ you are so near yet so far. says:
*if there's a like button i will press until ur blog crash

Hahaha, you're so full of shit. Seriously.

And again, I woke up choking back hot tears. I wonder how long it will take before I stop breaking down suddenly at work, at home, in the shower, before bed time, and upon waking.

2 kg in a week is definitely not funny. And I thought July could be a month filled with happy posts from my trip to Sydney. Sadly, all that I brought home was a whole luggage of pain and more. I deserve better, I think I do.

Despite knowing the fact that I'd be arriving in a few hours' time, she still wanted to go over to spend time with him. That night, he was over at his friend's place, but what happened after he got home, I do not know.

I should trust him when he said that no, she did not go over after he got home, but after all that has happened, I find it hard, so very hard, despite how much I really want to believe.

I wake up everyday, hoping that this is just a nightmare, but it isn't. Waking up to a piercing heart is simply not nice. Sure, time will heal, but the scars will stay.

My suspicions were true. Yet I've been fooled around by them, which led me to think that perhaps I was being way too analytical and overly-suspicious.

The man I love, the woman girl involved, and the housemate. Lie after lie. I feel like a fool. And I was made to apologise to her for something that I should be the one being apologised to instead.

Been troubled since I was there, all the way till last night, when everything tumbled out. There's only so much I can take. Have any of you thought about me for a moment, that I'm only human, and there's only so much pain a living soul can take.

I'm hurting, and none of you will ever understand the pain I'm experiencing, unless you're being put through the same load of shit as I was put through. What did I do to any of them to deserve this?

Sydney - 29 & 30 June 2010

Back from Sydney for 4 days and I'm already missing the fresh crispy air there. I don't dig the winter weather, but the light thin air was really very refreshing to breathe in every single day!

I went to work as usual, but with crazy excitement that I could barely contain in me, and when it was time to knock-off, I sped off to the airport, anticipating and counting the hours before I could cuddle in the arms of NJ4.



After being up in the air for 7.5 hours, I finally touched down on the soils of Down Under. At 6.30am, my arrival was half an hour earlier than estimated, hence NJ4 was not there yet. I took a walk outside of the airport, 1 round around the carpark and boy did I almost freeze in the 1 degree celcius weather!

The boyfriend finally arrived and off we sped to his home!




The boyfriend had a very pleasant surprise waiting for me since the day before I arrived, and this was what he made for me, with the help of 2 other sweet angels:


TIRAMISU!

After unpacking a little, it was time to hit town, and so we did!







I miss Sydney, and I miss the boyfriend. Baby, you and I know what you've put me through of late. With renewed promises, I hope you adhere to them. iloveyou.

Back From Down Under

After 3 weeks of absence, I am back in (humid) Singapore. Goodbye Sydney, goodbye cool weather, goodbye nice sceneries, and goodbye darling. I will see you back in Singapore this coming November. Till then, I love you, everyday.