there he goes...
hon enlisted le...woke up diz mornin n his parents came 2 get me den we wen 2 sembawang 2gether to send him to camp...
the pool's so darn cool...it's like 10 metres deep...wif levels of 1 metre n 4 metres(where they'd b doin most of their trainin at)...the pool can b seen frm beneath...similar to dat of viewin polar bears in the zoo...haha...
saw an enlistee hu looked really familiar...tink he's 1 of the CII frm CIBTC...he kinda gave me the "i tink i noe u" look too...hmm...
dunno watz he doin now...guess his hair is gone...tink he'll look kinda weird?cant imagine...saw pics of him wif real short hair b4...but botak is pretty hard 2 imagine...hmm...he'll book out nxt thurs coz fri is gd fri...cant wait...missin him oready...
n the worst thing is dat their freakin officer said dat dey cant haf their handfones wif dem!!!even so,it'll b kept by the officers...dang!diz is so torturing man!at least tekong allows recruits 2 use their hps...NDU is simply so weird...nvm lahz...im lookin 4ward 2 nct thurs...

pissed!
dang!jerks still exist in diz era?!n it's juz my luck dat i happen 2 noe 1...alwaes using the word "fuck" on gals?so barbaric n unrefined...dunno watz his prob...nv provoke him n i got blasted 4 nth...
he likes 2 get tings heated up wen everything is so calm...tink he juz loves 2 find fault wif ppl...i wun b surprised if he loses all his frenz...tink if dat dae cums,he deserves it totally!wif his kinda attitude,he cant hang on 4 long...

*gonna dig a grave specially 4 u!*

a few more hrs is all datz left...
15 hrs n decreasing...hon's left wif juz dat lil time b4 he enlist...so scary!
aniwae,hon's cumin over later...muz spend the last few hrs wif him...haiz...will miz him...seems like these few daez ive been tokin abt diz issue n nth else...well,it's coz he's really on my mind too much...haiz...
dunno how m i gonna pass the nxt 3 wks...it'll be torturous but i will make it!
hmm...exams cumin up soon...gotta buck up le...haiz...

nervousness sets in...
juz got back frm hon's place...aft sch i wen 2 orchard 2 get some things done den bought takopachi balls 4 my baby cos he was craving 4 it...
haiz...baby will b enlistin real real real soon...he's left wif like 1 more dae!datz like juz tmr onli...n the dae aft he'll b bald!i'll definitely miss him alot!dunno how life's gonna b w/o him arnd...im gonna flood him wif msgs...hahaha...den he'll go bonkers wen he reads dem all b4 he slps...hehe...
haiz...he wants me 2 attend sch on wed...n nt send him in...but...i DUN CARE!!!i wanna send him in!!!no matter wat he saez,im gonna skip sch n send him in!!!
baby,i'll miss u alot...really...i luv u hon...take care...

Muacks!!!
happy 4th mth hon!!!we've been thru alot...n i really mean ALOT!luv u so much hon!

yay...happy 2dae...
juz got hm frm my date wif honey...jason n his gf too...we sort of double dated...hehe...watched scooby doo 2 again...juz realised 2dae dat wen i watched it the other dae,i missed quite alot of parts...haha...
b4 the show n b4 miting jason n xian wen,baby n i walked arnd...n time alone wif him was enjoyable...
aft the show,jason n xian wen wen off on their own...so 2 sae it was hon n i again!hehe...walked arnd 4 awhile...den headed back hm...
yawnz...super duper tired...tink i'll slp soon!

haiz...
haiz...baby...ydae wen u msged me saein u 4got 2 bring ur hp,it was 3 plus...den y ur journal was timed at arnd 1pm?i dunno but somehow u aint bein really very honest...i dowanna b lied by u animore,coz it hurts me alot...esp wen i find out tings by myself...it really sends a stab thru me...
aniwae,im still sick...coughing like a nutcase...last nite almost dieded coz breathing was so tight!
hon's enlistin real soon...will miss him lots...hmm...kk,gtg...


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bozo!
was feeling kinda crummy 2dae...n guess wat...yes,i did it again...bought a white long sleeve tee frm topshop...guess it's turnin in2 sum kinda bad habit...weneva im troubled,i'd spend...
last mth was on dat zara jacket...n now diz...owellz,i fell in luv wif it the moment i saw it n i cldnt resist it...it happened wif dat zara jacket too...aniwae it's nt alwaes dat i fall in luv wif sumting immediately once i c dem...so yepz,weneva i c smth i really really like,i'd get it...i shld start pamperin myself more...
aniwae,i juz hope dat diz wldnt turn in2 a habit...aniwae my mum said dat the top was nice...but she almost strangled me wen she saw the price tag...haha...
another boring evening im gonna spend...ciaoz every1!

pleasant dae...
yawnz...juz got hm...2dae was a nice dae indeed...met hon diz afternoon at arnd 12 n we wen 2 body worlds 2gether...the exhibitions were pretty boring...mayb coz im sick datz y i dion really enjoyed myself...but time spent wif hon was great...
at arnd 5,we left expo n i headed 2 town 2 mit my CI mateys...watched scooby-doo 2 wif dem...abit lame lahz...waste of my time n money...now im officially broke...brought out 60 bucks n im left wif like 4 bucks?damn...how poor can i get man...
haiz...now my hon is angry wif me juz coz he tot i msged him earlier 2 sae im goin hm but the fact is dat i msged him onli at 9pm wen i juz finished eating dinner...den at 9.45 wen he still haven reply,i msged him once more 2 ask y he din reply n told him i'd b goin hm soon...den dunno y he said i msged him 2 hrs b4 2 sae im goin hm...dunno wat happened lehz...haiz...now im so stressed over dat...n the worse thing is dat now he's kinda dao-ing me...sad sia...haiz...
nvm lahz...im goin off 2 slp le...hope tmr everyting will b fine...

yawnz...
haiz...been feelin really lethargic lately...dunno y...
juz got back frm PHS nt too long ago...PHSNPCC is havin a camp now n i finally saw 4 myself 2dae dat a computer in the com lab is really switched onat nite!there's no entry 2 the room somemore...freaky huh?i heard diz frm mani ppl b4 n onli 2dae i saw it 4 myself...was wif cherry wen we saw it,coz we wen 4 a trial of the solo walk...
hmm...the solo walk thingy was pretty scary...tink the cadets really put in lotsa effort in it...kinda spooky...
hmm...tmr aft my econs test i still gotta go get a cake den head dwn 2 ECP 2 join the rest...argh...i gtg oready...muz mug...ciaoz!

tired...but very very happy...
yawnz...juz got hm...aniwae i wen 2 sch as usual den aft sch i met my lil cow...we wen 2 watch the eye 2...nt bad but i feel dat the eye 1 was betta...
b4 the show,we juz walked arnd PS n aft the show,we wen 2 Istana Park while baby enjoyed his takopachi balls...aft he was done wif his takopachi balls,we wen back hm...hehe...he wen 2 cut his hair n the barber was so full of crap...so farnie...
althou nth much was done at his place,time spent wif him was nice...wish dat we can spend more time 2gether b4 he enlist...spending time wif him juz makes me feel...so happy n contented...so xin fu...haha...
tmr im gonna skip my 2 lects coz im goin 2 PHS aft my CIP for NPCC camp...but i won't b stayin over cos of econs test...

tired...
argh!im so freakin tired!diz mornin brought my cadets 4 their civil defence course...now im in sch in my PT kit!so lame!oh yah,got a mornin msg frm baby so earli in the mornin!i was so shocked!but dat was so swt!
hmm hon,some things dat u do 2 me hurts so much n i dun complain 2 ani1 so the onli wae 2 feel betta is 2 sae it all out in my journal...
alritez...tcher naggin at me le...blog another time...miz u all peeps!

haven been bloggin much...
hmm...it seems like there's alot of things goin on wif ur life...new gals etc etc...yeahz,missed those times whereby i'd b the 1st 2 noe all those things...aniwae,felt relieved wen i read ur blog...it gave me a lil sense of...happiness?
life's pretty rocky lately...had alot of misunderstandings wif jer...im gettin more n more used 2 it oready...haiz...things aint dat bright on my side...
was supposed 2 mit jer diz mornin at 9am at yck mrt...but apparently he fell aslp again n onli at 10am den he answered my call...i wasted 1 whole freakin hr...i almost wanted 2 cry...2 tink i was so patient 2 wait 4 an hr...
i hafta force myself alot in order 2 lead life happier...i gotta try...hard...

the world is splitting!
aye!wat a haywire world...everyting was pretty calmed dwn wen sum1 had 2 juz cum in n crash everyting...as if life wasnt oready bad enuf 4 me?he was supposed 2 b sum1 whom i cld confide in(coz he TOLD ME i cld),nw he's backfiring me?
aye...nvm...im learning 2 take tings easily...mayb i shld lock myself up,awae frm the world,4 awhile...

depression...
im goin thru a minor depression now...my appetite has gone dwn the drain...it aint serious yet,but i hope my condition wun worsen...
i finally knew where jer wen...he claimed dat he was out wif a fren...n his life is kinda messy now...but wat i dun understand n cant relate 2 him is dat y he doesnt wanna share his woes wif me...it seems like he nv opens up 2 me...he noes i hate 2 b lied 2...
i really wish dat u wun hide aniting frm me animore...u noe i hate it...wen ur life is in a whirlwind,mine is too...coz ur life affects mine...it's nt fair to me!

dreams r nv 2 b ignored...
i mentioned dat i had nitemares abt jer 4 the past 2 nites rite?i tink those nitemares were omens 4 me...diz mornin i woke up feeling strange...n my senses were rite...
my prediction is gettin stronger n betta...jer lied 2 me 2dae...a major lie...diz mornin he msged me saein he juz got hm n i presumed he'll b at hm resting coz he's sick...den abt 3 smth,i msged him,n he said my msg woke him up...i called him a lot of times n he rejected all my calls...i den called his home n found out dat he aint at hm...his mum said he onli wen hm diz mornin 4 awhile n left wif a fren 4 breakfast...n din return hm aft dat...
y din he tell me n y did he hafta lie...n y cldnt he even ans my call...he said dat i dun tell him my probz n expect him 2 noe...
i cried so much during biz stats lect...thankfully my frenz were very supportive...but i cldnt concentrate during lect...dunno y he bcame liddat all of a sudden...there's smth really wrong n he aint tellin me...
he noes dat i hate ppl 2 lie 2 me...yet he kips doin it again n again...n 2dae was the worst of it all...wat the fuck is wrong with him?

tipsy turvey & up-side-down...
singapore was flooded ydae!woot!amazing...
aniwae,im so happy coz i juz bought a Zara jacket ydae...it cost me $60 but heck!i fell in luv wif it the moment i saw it,datz y i cldnt resist not buyin it...impulsive purchase,but heck!haha...it's a plain baby blue jacket...but the material won me over!dats y i bought it w/o tinking twice...
aniwae,din mit dear ydae...so sad...been havin nitemares the nite b4 n last nite...i dunno y...but datz spooky...haiz...wish dear wld recover frm his sickness soon!
haiz...he's enlisting real soon too...but owellz,nvm...i'll still get 2 c him on weekends rite?haha...
to you,dun assume dat life is great on my side...the wae u put it is like im havin a rockin great time...nahz,dat aint true...sometimes i do wish u r still arnd buggin me here n there...it's a kind of bonding dat feels gd...like u,empitness sets in sometimes...wen i tink back,memories cut deep like a knife...can c dat u r gettin on wif life pretty fine lately so all i can do now is hold on 2 memories...
alritez...gtg to sch,luckily daddy is sending me...

the holz...gone juz liddat...
damn...my holz r over...yucks!i spent it at hm everydae!horrid!urgh...i haven enjoyed myself yet!priority is alwaes given 2 npcc n nth else...nt dat im complainin but ive really nt rested enuf yet...as in mentally n physically...shag...


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whoo hoo!!!
woot!the com is finally ok le!!!n i finally got back my msn!!!yippie!!!
oh aniwae...life's been terrible w/o msn...haha...hmm...aniwae...wen 4 np training 2dae(or ydae rather coz it's past midnite)den yong kang came dwn...haha...so long nv c him le...i remembered him as the fierce CI...haha...but 2dae he was damn frenly...
hmm...den saw jacky as well...he msged me juz now at arnd 8 i tink n asked if i was in phs 2dae...n said i so dao...wat the heck...haha...dunno him dat well,so datz y din sae hi...
hmm...my hon is sick...been sick pretty often lately...muz take care!
alritez...take care every1!!!cheerios!

haiz...
baby got his As results back 2dae n he's feelin crummy over his results...wanted 2 b there 4 him but he wanted time 2 b by himself...i haf no idea where he wen either...he juz got hm...left me a msg saein he's hm n dat he's gonna go eat wif his family nw...i asked where he wen aft he collected his results but he din reply me...
humpx...another boring dae...watched armageddon...finally watched the whole show completely...

yawnz...
man...im so slpy...*yawnz*...baby came over diz morn...he's still here,slpin like a log...so i did my own stuff the whole dae while he slept like a log...hmm...haven done much 2dae...juz played FFX...
hopefully tmr will b a more eventful dae 4 me...my holz r so freakin boring...i spent the whole wk at hm!2 tink i wasted my 1 wk holz juz liddat...bleah!
tmr's the big dae 4 baby...his As results r cumin out...wish dat he'll do well! =) well well,i tink ive got nth more 2 blog...diz is gettin real boring...im off!gonna go back 2 my FFX...cheerios!

the holz r here...but it doesnt seems like it 2 me...
i dunno y but i juz dun feel dat wae...tmr still gotta go back phs 4 GOH training...there goes 1 dae of my holz...
hmm...baby's enlisting real soon but he's still workin his life awae...wen on earth r u gonna quit n spend more time with me?
alritez...my bro juz re-formatted the computer n now there isnt ani msn 6!argh!n the bloody windows messenger aint workin...cant seem 2 work aniting now...sianz...
there's nth 2 do online now(coz no msn!)so aft diz entry i tink im goin back 2 my FFX!hahaha...im in sin now,gonna fight seymour...haha...ok lahz...im outta here...back 2 my game!yay!!!buaiz~

yes!finally defeated yunalesca!haven touched FFX 4 soooooo mani mths oready coz i was stucked at yunalesca...so i gave up...sch started 4 me back den so i had 2 stop too...so now dat my holz r here again,ijuz started playin it again ydae...trained my ppl hard,real hard n wen 2 fite yunalesca n yepz!i defeated her on the 1st bloody attempt!b4 sch started i fought her mani mani mani times yet i still failed...but now!hahaha...yay!victory is mine!i muz play FFX intensively le...gettin hooked on2 it once again...darn!but hey,luckily it's my HOLZ!!!!!hahaha!alritez...signing off!

izzit misconception or izzit dat u r juz plain oblivious?
hah!my toes r laffin!hueva said u were insultin me?plz read properly in future!n hueva said i cry in the middle of the nite 4 u or 4 aniting?i'll nv do dat!yes,i was sad dat tings turned out diz wae n i had cried enuf daes ago...far i haven shed a tear 4 u...no more!another correction 4 u,wat was all the tok abt prostitute?i oso din mention all those...u were the 1 hu came up wif all those probably coz datz on ur mind...owellz...wateva...
if u wanna play tuff wif me,so b it...tok 2 u nicely on msn,u ignore me...fine!yah,now i've seen the real u,the nasty side of u...my perception of u wasnt dat bad yet...till i read ur last entry on 29th feb...
wateva hope of wantin 2 hold on 2,u r tellin me straight in my face 2 let it all go...is dat it?fine,i respect ur "decision"...wat u wan u juz sae lah ok?if my effort of bein nice now aint workin,den i shall nt waste dat effort.so juz speak up.
even if aniting wld 2 change now,tings btwn us will b remain as sucky as it is now rite?
i tink im gonna haf a mental breakdwn soon...but hu cares?!