leap year!!!
it's the leap year!haha...ok,it's nt a very big deal but since it's once every 4 yrs,i feel i shld juz leave an entry for fun...haha!
aniwae,i woke up at like 1pm,finally replenished my beauty slp...still abit tired but at least i look more refresh 2dae...
my holz r here...i muz go n lay out my plans 4 the wk,otherwise i'll b bored 2 death...haha...

oh...onli aft tings r liddat den u sae u r a fool 4 doin all those tings 4 me?sour grape...ive noticed ur wae of handling tings...wen u cant get some1 or smth or aft a breakup,u'll condemn the gal...do u tink it's fair 2 dem?if datz ur wae of handling tings,den u r childish...
u alwaes tok bad abt ur exes aft the breakup...yes,dey broke ur heart,but whose heart hasnt been broken b4?u hafta learn 2 take tings in ur stride n stop ur childish waes...nv ever use swear words at gals cos it's crude...whether u wanna listen,up 2 u.

dead tired...
gosh...im so darn tired...been out the whole dae 2dae since 8am!juz got hm...
ok,here's how my dae went...wen 2 sch at 9-10 4 my accounts CA,aft dat rushed all the wae back 2 PHS coz gotta go 2 PA 4 the campcraft com(girls)...the girls' standard is much betta than the guys!our gals managed 2 set everyting up...pretty impressed wif their flagstaff...tent was nt too bad too!
aft the competiton,ms sharmila treated us 2 KFC at thomson plaza...den aft dat i received a call frm my squadmate askin if i wanted 2 go out wif dem...i had nth 2 do so wen out wif dem...6 of dem i tink, or was it 5?
ok...here's the idiotic n exahusting part...we actually walked frm somerset all the wae 2 PS but din enter PS n ended up takin mrt frm dhoby ghaut...so idiotic!walk 1 station 2 another station 2 take mrt...tot dey wanted 2 walk arnd PS awhile...nvm lahz,take it as a form of exercise...haha...
ok...here's the more idiotic part...wen i reached yck,it started 2 rain heavily so i called my daddy n guess wat...he wasnt at hm!he n mummy were at conrad hotel!argh!den coz it was raining,i cldnt go back on my own...so yupz,i wen ALL the wae 2 conrad 2 look 4 dem!!!
it's time 2 rejoice!coz my holz r here!hahaha...althou it's juz a measly 1 wk break,but it's betta than nth!i had betta catch up wif my beauty slp man!otherwise...i'd b like wat my squadmates call me : "xiao xiong mao" ...hahaha...

yippie...
2dae's our 3rd mth...wen 2 sch 2dae as usual...n hon juz surprised me by askin me 2 go 4 dinner wif his jc frenz(ronnie n shaun)haha...so yepz...wen out wif dem...had dinner at nooch...
oh yah...gave hon the topman shirt le...haha...n he got me 2 CDs dat i've alwaes wanted...a gareth gates album n a clay aiken album...haha...thanxie!heez...
aniwaez...i've got my accounts CA tmr n i've not really started studyin...sheesh!n tmr's the start of my term break!yippie!so happy...finally it's the holz...cant wait 2 slack...been slpin too little lately...i nid 2 catch up on slp during my holz!haha...

happy dae turned sour...
2dae was actually an alrite dae 4 me...wen 2 topman at suntec's branch aft sch 2 get a shirt 4 hon...i was really excited abt it but hon disappointed me...he had diz "sudden" last min gathering wif his jc frenz...n the best ting was dat he din tell me abt it...knowing dat i dun like last min decisions,i haf no idea y he still wen on wif it n din tell me abt it...if i din ask,he wldnt haf told me abt it...till now,u still haf no reasons as 2 y u cant reply my msg?
hope dat life wld turn arnd soon...sick of all diz oready...

thanks...
thx so much 4 all the support...deb,steph,val n of coz nt 4gettin,hon...u ppl juz rock!guess now the onli phrase dat'll b running thru my mind frequently is "if onli...blah blah blah"...but owellz,no pt dwelling over diz rite?juz gotta wait n c wat can b done nxt...
hmm...cant wait 4 the holz 2 cum...but rite on the dae wen my holz start(which is on 28th feb),i haf accounts CA!so dumb...biz stats was on V dae...now accounts is on the 1st dae of our holz...how smart can SP get man?
owellz...tink im gonna laze arnd 2dae n juz relax...life was too fast paced 4 the past few daez...

farewell...
yepz,it's the end of everyting oready...last nite's last n final chat wif u...i'll rem the date...24th feb,dat u used "fuck u" on me...thx...if dat was able 2 cum out frm u 2 sum1 hu USED 2 b once ur best fren,den i thank u sincerely frm the bottom of my heart.
i had enuf of crying...eyes r damn sore now,but life still goes on as usual...u go lead ur happy life wif ur happy frenz...oh yah,4 those hu judge me based on the 1 sided story,then piss off...
owellz,there's nth more 2 sae,nt much of a point aniwae...

now i realize...
now i noe wat kinda person u r...i've finally seen the real u...nv expected u 2 b sucha guy...ok so we r officially not frenz since 22 Feb is dat it?fine.
dun tink there's ani wae dat i can do 2 salvage diz animore...im very broken if u dunno...doubt u noe,coz u alwaes assume dat i can get over tings easily n so on...aniting den...it's sucha pity dat tings gotta end diz wae...

still groping on 2 hope...
b4 i sae aniting,i wanna let u noe dat im still holding no 2 the hope dat tings will b ok btwn us soon...
yes,im attached 2 him,but the place of a best fren can nv b replaced...bf/gf n best frenz haf no link at all...so neither can b replaced...
it takes both hands to clap,so if u wanna salvage diz frenship,u gotta work with me..yes i noe u nid time...but aint 1 yr plus or more abit TOO long?
haiz...life's been a whirlwind recently...

seperate waez we go?
ur post made me tear...it shows dat u do stand somewhere in my heart as a fren...i really dunno y u tink i dun care abt u at all...
i noe dat alot has happened recently but im tryin real hard...but there u r,totally givin up hope on our frenship...
if our 4 yrs frenship cant even last thru diz tough period,den im really perplexed as 2 wat 2 do...i really dun wanna lose diz frenship,it's so nt worth it...so will u plz put all grudges behind n start afresh?
oh yah...juz 2 let u noe...jay jay hasnt replaced u...he's he n u r u...so yah,ur status will nv b replaced...he's juz sum1 whom i can relate wif n the fact dat i can relate so well wif him is coz im actually helping him 2 chase diz particular gal,so naturally we r closer...but there's nth more 2 it than juz dat...

3 more wks of CIP 2 go...
2dae wen 2 Chen Su Lan Methodist Home again...i've got 3 more wks of it 2 go...cant wait 4 it 2 end!haha...aniwae,i self declared dat sch ended at 11am 2dae...haha...
baby came over 2dae...still here at the moment...gonna haf dinner wif my family b4 he heads back hm...he's singing 2 me now...
the best ting is dat he aint gonna work on saturdae n sundae!!!yay!finally he's taking leave!ok peeps...gtg...cya all...take care!

datz all i can do...
im nt gonna comment on wat u've written in ur journal posted on 19th feb...it's too hurtful...go ahead wif ur life n dun tell me den...listen 2 ur cousin,listen 2 ur frenz...
n im gettin u a v dae present nt coz of wateva reasons u assumed...im so disappointed dat u even had those kinda tots...i really cant believe u...
we r juz squabbling over smth dat'll totally harm our frenship n i dun c a point in us doin diz...

haiz...
hmm...i dunno y but weneva we chat,we seem 2 end up quarelling...i've been wondering if its coz u r expecting too much frm me?
coz frm wat i c,im still the same,juz dat u r like saein diz n dat n demanding n expecting alot frm me(eg:nv call u,nv contact u,nv tok 2 u...n the list goes on...)seriously speakin,i myself haf my own probz n im pretty sick of everyting oready...
well,i dunno,im tired...if u r gonna pick a fight wif me everytime we chat,den i dun c the point in us tokin...it'll onli further strain our frenship...
aniwae,watz wif the tok abt ur frenz askin u 2 let me go totally,even as a normal fren?wat kinda frenz r those man?2 tink dey wld encourage u 2 break off diz frenship wif me?i tink ur frenz r jerks...i mean c'mon lah,if dey were real frenz,dey wldnt even haf tot of dat ok!n if u wanna listen to dem,den so b it.i really cant do aniting...
im tired,really very tired...i've got nth more 2 sae...

valentine's dae...
had my test on v dae...den aft dat met my squadmates 2 go 2 jjc's carnival called love fiesta...my squadmates were crappy...esp jay jay...haha...dey all really noe how 2 make my dae...so it was pretty fun...
wen 2 his place frm 7 plus 2 9pm den we headed to novena n dined at fish n co...
i was like so freakin full man n i cldnt finish my fish n chips...it was really damn filling...haha...so yeahz,he finished it up 4 me...got a rose frm fish n co(all ladies got a rose)...well,althou v dae was spent juz liddat but it was pretty alrite lahz...
last nite had dinner wif his family n his grandad as well(last minute decision)...somewhere in amk...nt bad,quite nice...was pretty full too...
aniwae,ive got nth much 2 blog recently...so dun mind my boring entries...God Bless...

tired...but happy...
juz got hm frm all the last min valentine's dae shoppin coz tmr i'll b seeing all my classmates(all thx 2 biz stats CA...sux!)...so i had no choice but 2 get their's all by 2dae...
yay!tmr's the big dae 4 every1...(aft my biz stats paper dat is...)...haha...alot of exchanging of gifts will take place man!cant wait...haha...n aft my stats paper i'll b goin 2 carnivals at jjc n yjc wif my CI squadmates...juz cant wait!!!
but...im dreadin tmr's biz stats paper...haiz...haven really started on revision yet...aft diz im gonna disappear n study man!haha...
ok lahz...i gtg le...happy advance valentine's dae 2 all!

im crawling...at least im doin smth...
yes...i've finally started on my biz stats...finally got some lil motivation 2 start studyin 4 me...the more i fear it,the more i shld start earlier...
i dunno y but im startin 2 feel dat life is gettin more n more bland...seems like i nid more spices...oh creeps...i tink i betta get goin otherwise i'd really go nuts n nonsense will start spouting out frm me...

tiring dae...
juz got hm frm dinner at swensen's...wen 2 bumbong...so ulu...fed mosquitoes there somemore...haha...now so itchy sia...
aniwae,watz happening 2 u again boi?dun fall animore...u gotta get up on ur both feet again!u said dat my attitude 2wards u has changed...u may b rite but u gotta understand dat my life is nt 100% smooth-sailing...i've got my own probs 2 handle so i do get occasional mood swings...dat is smth dat i've got no control over...
im sure u'll b able 2 climb up on both ur feet soon...i wan 2 c u walk thru diz path on ur own as much as u can...dun rely on ppl...coz if u overcome diz urself,u'll definitely b a stronger man...
sch starts tmr...haven done my damn tutorial yet...n the most freakin thing is dat on 14th Feb,i haf my biz stats CA1...wat the *toot* man!n the worse ting is dat i noe nuts abt biz stats...im so doomed...i really gotta pull up my socks soon otherwise i'd b in deep shit...
alritez...i betta get goin oready...got sch tmr...humpx...

campfire...
cant wait 4 tmr...coz tmr is saiful's campfire...so it's a mini gathering 4 delta!cant wait 2 gather wif deltarians but nt alot seem 2 b goin...

lackin of smth...
hmm...felt shitty all over again 2dae...felt dat there's smth lackin in my life ever since it all ended...i was pretty alrite but wen i was on my wae hm,i started tinking n all the sweet memories flooded my head...
owell,had my shower,feelin a lil betta now...hope i'll stay diz wae n put him aside frm now on...(easier said than done but i'll try...)hopefully in no time i'd b back 2 my usual self again...
now i worry 4 my biz stats coz on the 14th feb,i'll b havin my biz stats CA...so freakish!muz get him 2 teach me,hope he will wanna coach me 4 stats,otherwise im a goner~!
met him on 2nd feb nite (1 dae aft it happened) n wat he said abt the last hug n so on was so piercing man...it was the wae he said it rather...so saddening...but he popped by on 3rd feb mornin b4 i wen 2 sch...haiz...dunno lahz,so messy sia tings now...
nvm,i'll juz take 1 dae at a time n c how tings goes...hope it'll b a betta tmr 4 me...

dashed...
everyting ended ydae...n i mean really ended...tink datz how tings gotta end...the incident on 30th jan 2004 sparked the fuse...he cld actually juz stone n left me there alone in orchard...apparently he said he was lookin 4 me but 2 no avail...he shld haf tried harder...
so now,im all alone again...leadin my single life...
now v dae will most prob b spent wif my frenz out there but it's ok,it's betta than nth...
well,i haven been bloggin much lately...dun haf much 2 write so yeahz...juz here 2 pour out abit of my sorrows n 2 update u ppl...
n boy,so glad dat u r alrite now...can c in ur journal dat u r much more lively oready...im so glad...stay cheery alwaes...b back soon!
alritez guys...cya all arnd...